Last year I wrote a post about altars of remembrance. I’m sure many of you have read it, but if you haven’t I highly recommend you give it a glance before continuing on reading this post.
I’ve recently had an altar of remembrance built for me. I had been pondering different ideas for a long while as to what kind of altar I could create. For some time I was set on the tattoo approach, but I simply couldn’t think of something that was perfect enough to be permanently marked on to my body for life. So the search continued until I came across some necklaces made by a company called Timely. Timely makes pillar shaped pendants which are meant to be engraved with dates, or words, marking a significant moment in one’s life on as many of the four sides as you desire to have done. I received mine this week and I love it.
Out of four sides, I chose three significant moments to have engraved on the pendant. Each of these three dates are moments where God went above and beyond in His pursuit for me. They are moments when He broke through the barrier into tangibility and met me right where I was at in the realest of fashions. Although the stories behind each moment are thrilling and divine, it’s not the stories I want to focus on as much as where I was spiritually.
October 17, 2012: I was a young, and perhaps a little naive, eighteen year old. Life outside the nest of home safety was very new to me as I found myself in Maui, Hawaii. Although I grew up around the church and in a Jesus centred family, I still hadn’t truly owned it for myself. I don’t think I even fully understood what it was all about yet. I fully believed in Him, yet I didn’t fully know Him personally. It was during this time, when I was quite clueless and unassuming in my faith that He made His first tangible move. I was like a silly sheep wandering around aimlessly and He directed me.
February 20, 2015: Now a little older, twenty-one, and a little more experienced, I found myself in a beautiful and quaint European town. I was much more sure of who I was and what I was called to be and do in life, yet there was a big problem. I had slowly slipped from the rock of faith and started wandering down weedy paths of sin. I am not proud of those days. My heart was poisoned and my actions were not honouring to God and the people around me. Looking back, it’s truly amazing how blind I was to the weight of my actions. Yet, despite being a defiant sheep blindly fleeing from His path and losing my way into a forest full of wolves, He came for me and reminded me of my destiny.
November 15, 2015: A few months before this moment, I found myself at the tail end of consequences from the life I was living during the prior moment. I was a sheep way off in the wilderness with broken legs. I was lost and wounded. I needed my Shepard to come take me home. Indeed He came for me, held me close, and reset my broken bones to be stronger than I could have ever imagined. So strong that, as terrible as the whole situation was, I would gladly go through it again just to reap the blessing that He gave me. I was once again safe during this time, but I had lost hope and direction. That’s when He came and set me on His path once again.
Blank: I intentionally left the last side blank. I did this because the story isn’t over. The journey has only begun. There are so many more moments to be written and experienced with God. He isn’t done with me. He’s constantly pursuing me and He will break through the barrier into tangibility once again. Until that significant moment, I shall wait expectantly and give Him the space to do so.
I share these three dates without the stories because as cool as the actual stories are, I can’t help but see who God really is through the state of my soul in these moments. I want to shout from the mountain top about His love and His mercy. I want everyone to know that the same God that rescued me and is guiding me into my destiny is the same God that is there to rescue you and guide you into your destiny. I share this because everyone needs to know that the Father in heaven is relentless for your soul.
Whether you are a silly sheep wandering aimlessly, or a defiant sheep wandering into a forest full of wolves, or perhaps a broken sheep in desperate need of rescuing, He is for you and will never forsake you. And above all, it’s not over. It’s far from over. He is relentlessly pursuing you and waiting for you to respond. Wait expectantly and get ready to mark a moment on your own altar of remembrance.
Recommended Reading: Nehemiah 9