It was something I had wanted to do for a very long time. I’m not completely sure why I put it off for so long, but it was likely due to the nerves of financial commitment holding hands with the unknown of whether or not it was really going to be everything I desired it to be. If I were to talk to most people about this vision, they’d likely not connect or at least find only little interest in it! It really is rather insignificant in the grand scheme of life, but it was something important and meaningful to me.
The weather was nothing short of a dream as I sat in a wonderfully cosy coffee shop with a dear friend. All my closest friends know about this idea I have and want to move into fulfillment. We were sipping away at the best iced latte’s you can get in Toronto when all of a sudden they said it — “This weather is perfect. Let’s conquer that idea you have.” OK, they may have said it a little less vaguely than that… but like I said it is so small and insignificant that you would likely laugh at me and not take this entire post seriously! So, let’s keep the mystery and revel in the unknown for the sake of the principle.
Hearing their words and feeling the bubbly excitement that comes with the first summer-y feeling day of the year, I jumped on board. I was gung-ho for conquering it, for doing it, for finally fulfilling the vision! I started planning our course of action, did some calculation’s to put my anxious bank account to rest, and just needed to finish my latte before heading out.
Now, not long ago the city of Toronto introduced a cool new feature where one can pay for parking at public lots through a smart phone app. It’s extremely convenient seeing as you can add time from wherever you are at the moment if the meter is running empty. Simply open the app, add additional parking and watch your funds slowly drain away. It’s amazing how expensive parking in Toronto is when you add it all up in an app, but at least it is easy, convenient, and comfortable!
So, as all this was occurring, the Green P app popped up on to the phone and warned us of the impending expiration of our parking. I saw an opportunity to procrastinate and suggested we add some additional parking so we could finish our beverages without rushing. I really didn’t have much left, so it was all baloney. I literally paid the city of Toronto so I could procrastinate a little longer and, sadly, found myself getting cold feet. I started thinking of all the reason’s I shouldn’t go through with my idea and buried the bright potential in the dark depths of my fear. We finished our drinks and left — the idea ultimately unfulfilled.
At one point I was worried if aiming and pulling the trigger would result in missing my expectations, now I was wondering if not pulling the trigger was worth the disappointment and nagging curiosity of what could’ve been! I knew there was a something to be learned in all of this, but I also knew the lesson could not come full circle until the story itself came full circle.
I am reminded of the Parable of the Talents. Although my story is different in nature, the principles still hold true. I found myself reflecting on how many times I went off and buried what I have been given purely out of procrastination and fear. Instead of giving it a shot and seeing what came of it, I just shut it all down immediately. How often do we bury bright potential in the depths of our fear? How much do we miss out on because we aren’t willing to try something? How much do we spend on adding parking to the meter just to procrastinate in comfort a little longer?
In the weeks since this day transpired, the vision has been accomplished. I unearthed the potential and stopped adding parking. I went for it. I knew I couldn’t write this post until I accomplished the mission, so here we are. I’ve been learning this a lot in life lately, but it is never worth the cost of additional parking. It’s truly amazing to see how momentum flows forward when consistently attempting to take steps in life — even when completely unsure if it’s the right direction. I’ll admit, the fulfillment of my vision was not everything I had imagined it would be, but it was worth the attempt! The only regret I have is spending so much time wondering what would happen if I did it, rather than just trying to do it!
Are you adding parking? If so, let this serve as an encouragement that it is so much more worth it to pay the price of risk than it is to pay the fees of procrastination.
Recommended Verses: Matthew 25:14-30