Jesus knows everything we have done in our lives and everything we are going to do in our lives. He knows the decisions we will make years before we choose to make them. He knows the good, the bad, and the ugly. Yet despite this foreknowledge of our less than lovely moments, He goes about instilling dreams in our hearts and issuing calling’s over our souls.
I started thinking about this as I read about Peter’s relationship with Jesus. Peter was amongst the first people to recognize Jesus as more than just a mere man, but also fully God! And it was in that same moment that Jesus issued a call over Peter’s life; Peter was to be the rock that He would build His church on. That’s pretty intense, if you ask me. However, fast forward a few chapters in the story and the next thing you know Jesus is foretelling Peter’s denial of Jesus.
Jesus wasn’t wrong and Peter did the ugly. When Peter realized what he had done, he was destroyed by it. His heart was broken, he was full of remorse, and he wept bitterly — which must have also been ugly! It is so amazing to me to look at how close Peter was to Jesus and all the signs and wonders he experienced, yet he still succumbed to his fear when confronted about his relationship with Jesus.
After His crucifixion and resurrection, Jesus made some appearances to His crew. Peter was on the list. As they finished eating breakfast together, Jesus asked Peter if he loved Him and Peter said yes. Then He asked Peter again and Peter responded with another affirmative. And just like Peter’s triple denial, Jesus asked once more and Peter, being grieved by the third inquiry, emphatically said “Lord, you know everything; you know that I love you!” Cue the fireworks! Jesus not only redeemed Peter through the cross, but met him face to face to redeem the weight of a specific mistake.
I can only speak for myself, but I know that I’ve been fearful in the past that my sins, poor behaviour, or mistakes have ruined God’s plans for me. Just last year I realized some big areas that I had gone wrong in. I had not seen it for so long, but by the time I did the damage was done. I thought it was all over for me. How and why would God still call me to the dreams He has for me after such a long time of dishonouring Him?
I went against God and when I finally truly realized it my heart was broken by my behaviour, I was full of remorse, and I wept very bitterly — which is how I know how ugly Peter must have looked! It wasn’t over, though, and it isn’t over. It was actually just the beginning.
Some of our best lesson’s come from our worst mistakes and I definitely learned a lot — actually, “a lot” is an understatement. Amongst the endless lesson’s I learned, one was that God’s promises don’t vary, our obedience to Him does. He has a plan for all of us. He knows all the mistakes we will make, yet the promises are still given.
I don’t know if you are in a situation like this, have been in a situation like this, or will one day be in a situation like this, but Jesus is beside each and every one of us in the good, the bad and the ugly times asking a simple question “[Insert Your Name], do you love me?”
“Lord, you know everything; you know that I love you!” is how I responded and He went to work in some of the most beautifully painful, miraculous, and dream affirming ways I couldn’t even have imagined. It’s not over until He says it is over. His grace is greater than our biggest mistakes. Our obedience is in our hands and the promise is in His.
How are you going to respond?
Recommended Verses: Matthew 16:13-19 | 26:30-35 // John 21:15-19